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Therapy? But I’m not messed up, you say with your well practiced straight face. 

Oh?

Let’s pretend you’re trapped in a tight balloon.

why am i trapped? you ask yourself.

It’s dark, but you’re comfortable. It’s warm, but it’s getting hot. It’s accommodating, but you’re running out of oxygen. 

You’ve lost your memory, you don’t know who or what you are.

Somehow, you know that it’s time to leave, but before you get a chance to start looking for a new place, walls constrict around your body, squeezing the breath right out of you. how can a space DO THAT. AND TO YOU? Loyal tenant for all your life. You’re losing oxygen, fast, and you are powerless. An invisible hand is pulling your limp body down a small tunnel. You can hear the pained cries of a soul on the other side and panic. Your mind is racing as mouth agapes like a trout-out-of-water. You’re trying to put it all together; all you did was reside in a tight dark space for a while–sure you didn’t pay rent but, like, how could you? you don’t even know what money is. By this point you are convulsing, a lumpy mass fighting for life, air, air, and life. The screaming on the other side gets louder, and you hear…My god, they’re torturing that poor soul, and you’re next. You’re dripping in natural fluids, confused, and imagining this is what dying must be like…. Strangers pull your naked and bloody body out and you take your first breath…

WELCOME.

This is everybody’s entry into the world, and if that isn’t a traumatic experience, I do not know what is. I’m not going to go into the ineffectual coping mechanisms every other person and their moms proselytize. Coping mechanisms are just that, they help you COPE with life, they don’t help you LIVE your life. It’s part of the system of dependency that makes it easier to sell products and shit to you. So. go. to. therapy. if you tell me you’ve tried, you’ve seen a few. For a few months. It didn’t help. And then continue to lament the conditions of your life. The unhealthy relationships and roles you play out. if you tell me it’s complicated because of your insurance and never pushed through to resolve it. you can sort out your insurance or find a clinic that offers an income based pay scale. i believe in you. There’s different kinds of therapy – cognitive behavioral therapy, integrative holistic, gestalt, dialectical behavior therapy, hypnosis, just to name a few. Some research will determine which ones fit you, and it can take a few therapists before you find a good match, years of therapy before so called “turning a corner”, depending on your goals. Too many people give up before they get there. So. go. to. therapy. Self help books are okay but they are only a supplement. It’s like taking vitamins. You still need to eat food. So. go. to. therapy.   

oh if you don’t like it then go to church; go to temple; write a book; do some diversion;